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I have a suspicion that I must create.

Why I must change careers

The core activity which enables the art of engineering is the reduction of complex systems to those which fall more neatly into the monolith which we have designed for understanding and predicting the world. Assumptions are made, cautiously and with great regard, to be sure, but still we shave little slivers off until we have carved a perfect square, and into the slot it goes. And when we apply this science to science itself, what do we find at the core? Heisenberg and Godel, laughing at our arrogance, trying to remind us that we are playing a great game.

Models, frameworks, equations. All abstractions, perspectives chosen carefully to align with one another. I will not spend my life circumscribed by the assumption that those who have gone before me know better; I will not unquestioningly offer the sweat of my brow to the idol of Science.

What it is that I will do instead, I still don't know. I want to wrestle with the world in its most raw and unshaped form. I want a holistic perspective of things. I want to let loose the uncultured intelligence we call intuition and arrive at my own unique understanding of the things that surround me. I know for certain at least one thing I will do; as it is not presently a career option in any place I know of, I will do it for free, but know that if it were a career I would attack it with ferocity and dedication; such is my passion. I am going to get seriously stoned out of my mind as often as I can find the time, and furthermore I will ingest all the LSD and shrooms I can locate and afford, until one or the other world begins to make sense. If this means I must take a sabbatical, or postpone my career, or offend my family, so be it. This is my decision.

Cogitus Rex