I thought I heard someone call my name

It seems that I am highly resistant to the effects of LSD. I maintain my composure and experience only minor visuals and some internal agitation. I can laugh and have a nice time as if I were high, and sometimes think myself in circles. I do not have full-blown hallucinations, I feel very little sense of universal connectedness; in general, I act as though I've had one tab when I've had four. I read a quote from Stanislov Grof's "LSD Psychotherapy" that I think is very relevant to me:


"Subjects who in everyday life manifest a strong need to maintain full self-control, and have difficulties relaxing and "letting go," can sometimes resist relatively high dosages of LSD (300-500 micrograms) and show no detectable change. Occasionally, individuals can resist considerable doses of LSD if they have set this as a task for themselves. They may do it to defy the Therapist and compete with him or her, to prove or demonstrate their psychological "strength," to endure more than their fellow patients, to impress their friends, or for many other reasons."


This describes me exactly. Maintaining complete self-control is of paramount importance to me, I enjoy enormously that I am psychologically stable enough to resist the effects, and I show it off to Adair and James constantly. I'm going to trip with James this weekend and see if that helps me loosen up. Being around him always does that. I just hope he takes it well.