I am not sure you understand how difficult and painful it can be.

     You are accustomed to men who, when they have found what they want, seek it unhesitatingly. I like to consider myself intellectual, refined, and self-controlled; so I resist. You have scorn for those who pursue you openly. I sympathize with them. I know how hard it can be to be "adult." When it is necessary to pull away, I do it. When a piece of silliness is suddenly off-key, I cut the cord. It hurts to finish them, and I am ashamed that they ever happened. You should not blame the men who are only men, and you should not underestimate how devoutly I wish to be a stone.